A Memory that Led to Gratitude

As I was walking through Atlanta airport to get to my departure gate, I noticed a store that sold keychains that displayed the city of Atlanta. I was on my way back to my city but had to sit for a layover. A memory popped back into my mind. A man that I had dated was from Atlanta and brought me back a fridge magnet. What I remembered from that initial exchange was a feeling of disappointment and what I recognize now as, feeling low valued. This guy, who I was head over heels for, went back to Atlanta to visit family. I was happy he was going to have time with them and I asked if he could bring me something back. Though I never specified what it could be, I expected something normal like a t-shirt or a coffee mug. But I never received those items. I received a fridge magnet.

Though there is nothing wrong with fridge magnets, I recognized the hurt I felt because my expectations had not been met. Usually, men who value the women that are in their lives, display how much they value you not only with words but in actions and the heart is exposed in all areas. I realized in that moment at the airport that this man never thought highly of me or valued/cherished me in the way I felt I deserved. I had prayed for us to work out but God did not give me a yes on that one (as this happened back in 2021 and it is now 2024). I wanted to prove so hard that I was worthy of being with him and that we were meant to be together. So, if God felt I was valuable and exceeds my wildest expectations, why wouldn't someone who he is dating me do it?! Well, now looking back, I realized God’s decision to not allow it to work out was the perfect decision ever. I am now grateful for it.

See, what I realized on my vacation that is currently ending is that God knows what is best for us. His best in significant others, jobs, homes, opportunities, healing and more is top tier. As we do not know what is to come from our decisions thinking that we have all the answers. Our answers are best for the moment. God’s answers/solutions are best for the season(s) and generations to come. During that current time, I would have been settling for someone’s low treatment of me, when my Heavenly Father values me and gives me the very best, even when I mess up (and trust those mess ups come with whooping but I’m still alive LOL).

There is nothing more valuable than walking with Christ, learning and growing in Him, being pruned to be better (which is humbling and hard at the same time everyday), and understanding that I’m valuable to the one who gives me His very best. This is why I will never stop talking about how great He is and how essential it is to have a relationship with Christ. The miracles that he performs and the awakening of my soul is amazing and I love being used by Him. Representing of who He is important because I need and want to represent Him in a good one (even when I have my weird moments when I don’t want to be bothered with humans). So, as I sat in the airport, waiting to board my flight, I realize how gracious God is and how thankful that I didn’t end up with the man I thought I wanted. It was never as good as I thought and I’m glad God saw the heart of him before I did. We can always cry in the moment but be grateful in the new day.

Realize you are valuable and be grateful for what didn’t happen because you never know what God is protecting you from.

Love,

Chevy!